I’m late (again) I know… That’s two days in a row and that’s not like me at all! I’ll get it together, I promise…
It’s been a very long day; traveling all the way up to the North Country in New York for my cousin’s baby shower. My theory is that as long as I post before the day ends on the West Coast, I’m okay!
This week’s topic for SOCS is a “free-for-all” basically. I’m pretty excited about that. My whole life is pretty much a free-for-all. But. You have to end the post with a question!
Driving all day has provided me a lot of time to think about things. Since we were driving to a baby shower, naturally, thoughts of perhaps having a child of my own someday began…and it scared me. I’ll be 22 on the 3rd and so I’m still WAY TOO YOUNG to be thinking about this, but I just couldn’t help it.
I’d always said that I would not have children. Ever. Nope, no way. And for the most part, I still feel that way. I’m pretty selfish–most times I think about myself and nobody else before I go and do something. I gave a year of my life to something bigger than myself to somewhat make up for that selfishness. I still feel that I’m not as selfless as I should be. You have to be selfless to be able to raise a child and have a family. I just don’t think I could.
Maybe someday I’ll get over that and be able to have a child and a family of my own. But that day won’t come for a long, long time… But who knows?